true love

So this is not related to Seven at all, but just something that dawned on me this month.  This may very well be a "me" thing...

You know whenever you have a friend or someone you like, and you see them talking with someone else? Particularly with someone you are interested in I guess... I am like.. are they laughing and having a good time?  Do they like them better than me?  Oh no- cue every insecurity and everything I might have done wrong to push said individual away at some point in time.  And part of me just wants them to not interact with any other girl in case they do find someone they like better.  I mean, flawless logic right?  Completely reasonable... and achievable!  Ha.

Then it occurred to me... if they couldn't interact with anyone else ever, how shallow and more fragile that relationship would be.  They don't love me for me, but because they had no other choice.  So giving them freedom to see and meet and choose, while seeming scary, makes that love so much deeper.  Obviously that isn't forever- like not once we make a lasting commitment in marriage to one another for life.  But dang- it hit me- that is God with me... with all of us.  He doesn't want  us to love Him because we had no other choice, but He desires the true love and relationship that comes from choosing Him time and time and time again.  Thank goodness He is abounding in forgiveness and patience, because oh how many times my heart wanders.  But how beautiful His love- and the picture he paints for us to walk out in our relationships.