Fail-tober

Well, that was hard.

In short, I learned I like food and I like variety. It was hard having to have the same things over and over again even if I modified them to different cooking styles and flavors. It would suck to have super restrictive allergies or to live in a super restricted food area. I get that it's good to have any food in those situations, but my heart was not in a place of gratitude that it needed to be for food. Today, I had ice cream for lunch and it was great! I'm planning all the foods I want to get this month that I couldn't this month. I really want sushi...

It also gives me an appreciation for food poverty zones, when you only have so many things and making them in unhealthy ways tastes so much better! So I can see you I maybe they are the healthiest of situations...

Oddly, the more difficult situation this month was the sickness I had the last week or so. That brought out a lot of personal issues, mainly not being able to talk and having to wear my glasses for a week. Growing up with glasses I love having contacts now and I usually don't wear them out, so having to do that it was a real image struggle but I had no other choice. And what oddly seemed to better was my having no voice. Pink eye, ear stuff, laryngitis... Real winner.

It made me consider what I wanted to spend my few words per day on a lot more than I ever have because my throat would swell up and hurt every time I talked. I definitely say a lot of things that I don't need to say and take something as simple as talking and expressing my thoughts for granted. Although it did help with the food situation because I had a lot of chicken soup...

It was really cool driving back from a long way away when I normally would sing my songs, to instead silently pray through some of the lyrics. I had never done that and it was really cool!

So in short, I did learn a lot this month but it did not feel like a success :/ even though it was in it's own way. A heart of gratitude makes things go way better.