Provision

Provision. I've been really convicted this week on how I don't live a life that trusts in God's provision. I hoard little things and cast judgmental glances when it seems like something I've accounted for is being used up. It's all some illusion of control I seek after and fulfill in self-made abundance. 

Being in quarantine has helped me realize that some of the best things come from my lack of abundance. It does not mean God's provision is lacking. He has given me abundantly everything that I need. I just try to supplement it with the things that I think I need. Lack of the abundance I desire produces creativity... It produces gratefulness... It leads to problem solving... And delight in new ways and recipes. 

What seems like lack to me, is my distrust in God's provision by seeking to be God in my life by providing all my needs.